I DID IT!!!! So if you've read my previous posts, you see that last Tuesday I was supposed to give a presentation in my Holistic Medicine class. Well, I finally got to give it yesterday!! I don't know why I'm so excited....it's just a dang presentation but it feels so good to just have it over with. I won't know my score til next week so it's another week of waiting. (That just reminded me of what a pregnant person thinks when they think they just might have the baby early and it doesn't happen so they're all depressed.) So here I had two really great weeks to prepare and be ready to give my 'speech'. I knew the information fowards and backwards. I could have started in the middle and told you what happens from there and the things that led to the middle part. I was READY!! But of course I have to get up there, my hands still freezing cold, my heart rate racing causing high blood pressure, and the worst of all....SHAKING. I guess you could say between my cold hands and the way I was 'fanning' my note cards all around (not on purpose but I was seriously shaking that much) I was a walking AC unit. I'm sure the girls in the front row were wishing I'd just hurry up and finish already because their breath was starting to freeze!! And then I got up there and sounded like a TOTAL dork!! " I'm uh doing my ummm presentation on Innerakls;jdf I mean Inner Child Ther-Therapy. The ummmmm uhhhh founder her name is Parks ummm let me look ummm Penny Parks." Oh gosh Al, are you kidding me!!! Everyone was looking at me with a smile on their faces but I couldn't tell if they were laughing at me or thinking, "That poor miserable girl, I wonder if she knows that black is not her color?" BLACK??? I thought BLACK was everyone's color!!! But I eventually got everyone busy and looking down and visiting but then I felt like I was just talking to noone and I wanted to yell, "Hey I'm giving my presentation here!!!! Wait, Allee, they were all just looking at you and you were about to pee your pants. Did you like that????" Ya try having all this go through your head, read off the notecards because you can't remember a single thing, AND keep a smile on your face!!! OH oh oh oh oh I am so glad it's all over with!!

"Venus told me the other day that champions don't get nervous in tight situations. That really helped me a lot. I decided I shouldn't get nervous and just do the best I can." ~ Serena Williams

(I wish I would have found this quote before Tuesday.)

Kiddos

This BLOG is dedicated to little kids :-) I love hanging out with my neices. I love when Emery calls me just to tell me that she scraped her knee when she was riding her bike. Or when Darby calls to ask if I'm going to take a bath or a shower. It's so SWEET and I feel like the best aunt ever!!! (Usually Abby doesn't know they call me but they think that my number is number 7) Or when Caskie comes to visit and Kaja comes for a girl's night spend the night and I make a deal with Camden to have just an Aunt Allee and Camden spend the night and his mom tells me that he's been telling everyone, "Next time I see Aunt Allee I get to have a spend the night, just her and me." Or when I visit them at Mamaw's house and we play like he's a bear and me and Kaja Mae have to fight him off. Their darling little kisses and their tight little hugs!!! Oh it is the BEST ever!!! I love being an aunt. No matter what I do, the next time I see them, they think I am something special and the make me FEEL that way!!! My heart goes out to people who don't realize what little kids can offer. I work with a place called LIFE and I get to work with two autistic boys. Without a doubt, they make me smile everyday. Whether they're asking for tickles or running away screaming, I know they love and trust me. Wow now that's alot of responsiblity!!!! I can't imagine being a parent and having that weight 24/7. I'm dedicating this post to my two handsome boys: Jackson and Tyler. They are so incredibly AWESOME and I love every second I get to spend with them. Jack and I watched Wall-E the other day and he leaned over and held my hand. He looked up at me with his beautifully handsome eyes and gave me a big ole smile. (But then he realized what he was doing and he IMMEDIATELY let go!!!!) Even though I'm just now getting to know Tyler I can feel how much he already trusts me. I felt so good the other day at the center when it was transition time and he was supposed to go with Melissa to get to work and he gave me a hug and called me by name. It's the small and simple things that are so AMAZING!!!! Anyways, I love little kids and the joy that they bring into the lives of many.



"The more we know about how we lost our spontaneous wonder and creativity, the more we can find ways to get them back." ~John Bradshaw (Inner Child Therapist)

Pure JOY??

What is pure joy? Let's turn to the dictionary for this one.
Pure: adj. [pyoor] free from anything of a different, inferior, or contaminating kind; free from extraneous matter.
Joy: noun [joi] the emotion of great delight or happiness caused by something exceptionally good or satisfying.
So I'm going to break this down in blogging terms......MASHED POTATOES AND GRAVY (or noodles).
Mashed potatoes are PURE!!! They are not contaminated, unless you're a health freak and you consider butter an extraneous matter, and they ARE exceptionally good AND satisfying! Oh boy I can't even tell you how excited I am for Thanksgiving. Some AWESOME food and some GREAT company is what I'm looking forward to. I know I ususally write about something goofy or my insights or whatever but I just want to let everyone know what I'm grateful for this season. (Man that sounds awful, it sounds like I only think of what I'm grateful for at certain SEASONS!!!)

-My family
-My body
-My abilities (I know I complain WAY too much about not having enough of these but I am so blessed)
-My car
-My personality
-My jobs
-The weather
-People (good and bad)

These are just a FEW of the things that I think are pretty high up on my list. I am so thankful for my body and the things I can do with it. When I think about it, I feel so bad that sometimes I treat it so badly. Just watching my fingers type this is amazing!!!!!! (It's cuz I'm real fast hahah just kidding) My abilities seem to be growing beyong my comprehension. I actually don't think I'm gaining anymore, I've just realized that I can do alot more than I believed I could. My car...oh what would I do without my sweet BLOSSOM?!! She takes me wherever I wanna go and she never complains. She's my shoulder to cry on when I need to and she doesn't make fun of me or complain. It's because of her that I can be with my family as much as I am. I'm just now realizing that I have a pretty good personality. I'm not bragging because I'm FAR from perfect but I've been working with a few people who are SO hard to get along with and it's teaching me to just be happy and do my best to help them realize that things are not that bad. I CAN deal with things, I CAN handle pressure, and I CAN do it with a smile on my face. (Even if I'm really imagining something that involves me standing on their head) Oh and the sweet weather!!! I love love love it!!! Even if it's not cold enough to feel like Christmas yet....oh well. It's beautiful!!! I love rolling down my window in my car and turning up the Christmas station (99.9) and singing to the top of my lungs!! People look at me like I'm crazy but I just smile and wave :-) I love observing people and how the react or respond to different situations. I've noticed how dumb you look if you overreact and get mad over something so small. I'm realizing that lazy people are just that...lazy and not wanted. I'm not trying to be mean but I'm just making a point that most people know but maybe haven't witnessed it first hand. And last of all, my family. They make me so happy and I know they will do anything for me. BUT above all I am thankful for my Savior. I KNOW that he made all this possible for me. I'd be nothing without Him. Okay well I've given my Thanksgiving spill. It's fun to think about :-)


"When you are grateful fear disappears and abundance appears” ~ Anthony Robbins

Can you tell I'm frustrated????

Okay so I'm taking this class...HOLISTIC MEDICINE. I have absolutely loved it BUT that's not the point. We have been assigned to do presentations as our finals and we started giving them this week. The class only meets once a week but it's for 2 1/2 hours. Anyways, the teacher signed up 8 people to give their presentations this week. I was of the lucky first 8. Let me tell you a little about the assignment. 15 minutes....handout....visual....holistic medice related. Sounds tough right? Hmmmm well I decided to do mine on Inner Child Therapy. If you want to know more let me know. It's kind of weird that some people believe in it but at the same time it kind of makes me wonder.....so Monday night I'm making sure I know everything I need to know. Tuesday morning I'm making my note cards, going over my visuals, I even rented a movie to play a clip in class!!! I was set but still as nervous as could be!! ALL DAY I sat and thought about this simple assignment....afraid to get up in front of the class. And when I say nervous, my stomach was in knots and I had a headache, high blood pressure, increase of heart rate AND breathing patterns were crazy. I'm telling you, THIS COULDN'T BE HEALTHY!!!! I'm sitting in class, I have all my papers, stuffed animals, crayons, and my movie by me and my hands' temperature is dropping by the second. The first girl gets up....45 MINUTES LATER the next lady gave her presentations....45 MINUTES LATER the third person got up. So I'm sitting there slowly realizing there's not going to be time for everyone to give their presentation. Am I going to get to? (Ya my mental state totally changed. I WANTED to give my presentation...TODAY!!! I didn't want to have to wait another week and have another good for nothing miserable day!!!!) Well, the pattern of presentations went on....needless to say I didn't get to give my presentation. I WAS LIVID!!!!! How, as a normal human being, could you go on about something you have no clue about for 45 minutes knowing that you were only supposed to drag it out for 15????? BUT the worst part is....I'm going to look like a total dork next Tuesday when I get up and give a freakin' AWESOME presentation for 15 minutes. AND I have to find a different movie because The Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles is due back at Blockbuster on Saturday!!!! I was so upset by all of this that I was pretty sure the festering zit on my forehead was going to explode because of the pressure in my head!! I was SO ready to ring my teacher's neck for not stopping everyone when they should have STOPPED!!!!! But I'm over it now....hope I still feel that way next Tuesday.

RED vs. WHITE

RED vs. WHITE....sauce I mean :-) Well first of all RED sauce is tradition. It's what I think of when I see an Italian family sitting down to a meal. When the noodles are being sucked in and RED sauce flicks everywhere and you realize, "Wow, that is a fun meal to eat!!!" RED is laughter, RED is love, RED is family. Now WHITE sauce is elegant and intriguing. A romantic night out, a special engagement, that is WHITE sauce. There is no slirping with this smooth sauce. WHITE is romance, WHITE is pure happiness, WHITE is bliss. The choice between the two is a hard decision. "Am I allowed to have WHITE sauce if I'm by myself?" "Can I have RED when I'm feeling down?" My answer to ALL of you is YES!!!!! I know when I'm sad, alot of that is because of my family, I'm missing them. This would be the exact time to boil some noodles and warm up some of that savory RED sauce. Feeling lonely? A bit sad? Open a bottle of the elegant WHITE sauce and sit and remember the happy times.

DISCLOSURE:
Not all WHITE sauce will bring romance, happiness or bliss. Not all RED sauce will bring laughter, love, or thoughts of family. Eat with caution as there may be things of alien content. Eating too much will cause obesity, stained teeth and tubberware, rare heart conditions, colesterol changes, difficulty breathing, loss of eye sight, plugged-up nose, headaches, tingling in toes, redness in the throat, RED/WHITE speckles on the face, the desire for bread, a need for dessert, sleepiness, irritability, the urge to go potty, and in rare cases, DEATH! Enjoy!!!!!!!!!!!!


"As a child my family's menu consisted of two choices: take it or leave it." ~Buddy Hackett

Working on my fitness

Okay so I went to the gym today....yes yes thank you thank you!!! It was an 'interesting' experience. So on the upper deck there are treadmills, bikes, elliptical machines, you know, that kind of stuff. The lower floor is covered with weight machines and there are racquetball courts and a basketball court and a pool. Anyways, as I was running on one of the treadmills (for my warm-up) I was looking at people on the lower deck and seeing what they were doing and trying to make a mental map of what machines I wanted to use so I didn't have to go down there and wander through the machines looking like a dork. so I'm running and I looked down and there's this guy who I know from high school. We weren't friends, but we weren't enemies just to let you know. I had to tell myself this in case he happened to see me that way I wouldn't be dumb and turn and walk away but actually say "Hi how are you?" I was on the treadmill for about 30 minutes and I watched "Adam" (that's what I'm naming him for the sake of the story) workout. Let me explain to you his method of working out. "I'll try this....one two...okay!!! I need a drink." Then back to the same machine. "I think I need to try a higher weight. I'll move it down one. One... tw...oh no put it down!! Put it down!!!! I think I need to umm uhhh stretch. Yeah that'll help!" Awkward stretching....swinging his arms around frantically. "Okay. One....twwwwwwwo. Okay ya that was a good one....I think I could do a little more weight." He then moved it down a few notches and walked away from the machine....never returning. It was like this with every machine he tried. It must have been an off day for him. But then I got to thinking....well how dumb am I???!!! I've been running on a stupid treadmill for 30 minutes!!!! So to prove my strength and durability I moved to the...............................................................................................................................STATIONARY BIKE!!!!!!!